ShangriLaLove28

After my drunken scandal last night, I've decided to get the balls to finally ask him over and talk to him and confront him It wasn't actually a confrontation, but it was more... intervention. And by that I mean, clear the fog and get out of this funk we've been in together for a long long time I've been down in the dumps for the past 11 hours thinking that I ruined two people's chances at happiness, when in fact I didn't For so long I've tried so hard to be the best friend that I always wanted to be and to receive that benefit in return And maybe I did the right thing and maybe it'll be enough to remedy the guilt like ice cold water to a

Ok, truth be told. It was a tiny interest. Not the school girl into the boy INTEREST, but a small interest. The kind that I just couldn't keep a fucking secret, so I told my friend and it was nice at first. He was interesting. Not the normal person you would meet every day. It was a fascinating interest. The kind that makes you think... "What if..." And then you realize that the guy you like isn't boyfriend material... he was more like friend material. Worse than that? He was Father material. And then the horror struck me like a shovel to the face. Oh my god he reminds me of my dad! He's around the same age and has the same wonderful perso

It's been three days since I've moved into my new apartment and so far.... my life has been one big chaotic happy amazing time, I can't believe it.Every day when I wake up in my new bed and I realize that it's not my old room, I get confused for a moment, and remember... oh yes, this is my place. My own place. Then I smile and sleep in until noon because there's no one to tell me otherwise. Three days ago had been a huge turning point. Not the kind that defines me but the kind that sets me free from the house of horror. And by horror I mean my horrible uncle. I'm so happy I don't have to deal with his drunken pathetic human life form again. T